I’m Out Of Place

Last night I saw on DVD Julie Delpy’s film “2 Days In Paris”. The film hit home. The film has so many features that I will probably miss most of them in this entry. “2 Days” is about a couple - an American and a French – who stopped over in Paris for two days on their way back to New York from Italy. The French girl was reunited with old friends and lovers. Delpy, who wrote, directed and produced this flick, brought out, in my opinion, everything that is negative about the Frenchies. But she didn’t miss the assault on America either.

What hit home really wasn’t the stereotypes. It’s the main theme which is being out of place. I have been feeling out of place these past months. “2 Days” visualized the feeling of being out of place for me. You become passive externally, but deep down inside you are in a revolution. The feeling causes paranoia, jealousy, and pessimism. Paranoia because you don’t belong in a group and thus don’t understand their ways yielding you to believe that they are not the friendlies. Jealousy comes into play and I will withhold my reasons. Pessimism arises because all you would think about are negative things. Those things won’t be visible, though. They are all kept inside you and you become passive outside as a defense mechanism. You show them that you are not out of place while you are wishing that time will come that they visit your own world and kick them where it hurts.

Watch the movie and you’ll understand my feelings.

Add comment April 18th, 2008