Boredom Struck

Sunday. Boredom struck me. I was in the verge of depression - I may as well have been. I tried to sleep it off, but I can’t. My eyes are being pulled inside, yet I can’t keep them closed. Thoughts are empty, yet I feel tireless. I wanted to get out and watch a movie, but nothing is worth watching these past few weeks. Rented movies are too depressing and mind boggling. My mind’s not in the mood to think. Nothing on TV worth watching. Nobody worth talking to. I can’t write. Paranoid. I felt like ending.

My day didn’t start that way. When I woke up, I watched “Shoot ‘Em Up” on DVD which is action-packed. Then I had a light lunch and went to a car dealer with my father. The car was there, but nobody was available to appraise the van for trade-in. I’ll be back Wednesday morning and hopefully get it done quick. When we got back, I went grocery shopping because supply was low. Only it was after I got back from grocery shopping that time went so very slow I was actually wishing it was Monday the next hour. If everyone doesn’t want a Monday morning to arrive, I wished for it. What caused this? I very much know the cause. For anyone out there, if you can, avoid long distance relationship. It’s not healthy for you. I can fully control my emotions that’s why I’m still alive and breathing. If I was weak and have no self control, I would be messier now.

2 comments April 14th, 2008